July 22nd, 2012

Today was Sunday and I was very tempted to workout, but I know I'm not supposed to so I didn't. Plus, the whole day was a lot crazier than I had anticipated.
First, Hallie couldn't fall asleep. She was up until sometime after midnight. It was kind of rough. But Josh had hopped in bed earlier. After I got her to bed I had to get ready for bed. Which is a long process. I hate getting ready for bed. Sometimes I really wish makeup was never invented. lol. When I finally did get in bed Josh woke up, and then he couldn't fall asleep which kept me up. We were up until sometime after 4:30am.
Then I received a call at 7:30am from my Dad. He was informing me that my Aunt Marlene had passed away. It was heartbreaking. We all loved her so much. I feel terrible for my Dad. I have no idea how it feels to lose a sibling, and I don't want to know. I wanted to say something supportive that would make him feel less pain. But I didn't know what to say. I never know what to say when there's a death. And the lack of sleep wasn't helping either. I was able to fall back asleep, but then I woke up to knocking at my door at 8:30am. It was my parents. They were going to make a roadtrip back to Iowa for the funeral and were planning on leaving early Monday morning. And they wanted to know if we wanted to go. The rest of the day was spent trying to decide if I wanted to go and if we could. I did want to... Really bad. But could Hallie handle that much time in her carseat?? I wanted to be there to support my parents. But I didn't want them to have to spend money on us. I wanted to visit with all of my relatives. But it's normally a 2-day drive by itself. How long would it take us to get there if we had to stop every 2 hours to feed and burp Hallie for an hour?? I wanted to go to the funeral and say my goodbyes. But I knew it would be hard on me.  Finally I prayed at 9:30pm and my parents and I decided we'd just make another trip when Hallie was a little older and it would be easier. It killed me and relieved me at the same time.

Lucky for Josh, he was able to take a 3 1/2 hour nap while I stayed up with Hallie and took care of things. But sadly, it made us miss lunch with my Grandparents. I hate missing family things. I really want to make a greater effort to be more involved with family functions. I've really become more aware of the fact that family is the most important thing in this life. It always has been and always will be. And another let-down, we missed church. We've reallygotta do better. I just wish someone else would make an equal or greater effort. One step at a time, Caraline, one step at a time. 

July 20th, 2012

Friday, July 20th, 2012
I didn't get to exercise, so it ended up being an extra day off. Not proud of it, but I was pretty sore again so it wasn't the worst thing for me. Instead, I ended up looking through bags of baby clothes and items that my sister's sister in-law donated to me. Which is such a blessing. She gave me sooo many wonderful and cute outfits. I am so thankful because Hallie needed warm clothes for Fall and Winter, but we just don't have the money right now. But Lonnie surprised us and came to the rescue!
But that took me a couple of hours because of course we had to play with Hallie while we did it. I was planning on exercising right afterwards, but... my dad came home and asked us to run to the pool store with him. I love spending time with them, so I chose to do that instead. And then on the way home he decided to take us out to eat. Eeek! I know that restaurants pack everything full of sugar, salt and fat, so I had mixed feelings. But my mom and I decided to do the 2 for $20. I chose water. YaY! Always the healthiest choice. But the dang dinner deal comes with an appetizer. Dun Dun Dun!!! (p.s. that's the scary music in the background)We got the chips and guacamole. Not so healthy. Avocados are great for you, but the rest of the crap they add is not. And the chips definitely are not.
 I got the 6oz steak, but I ordered the lean version. My mom ordered the regular version and I was astounded at the difference between the two plates that cost us the exact same! My steak came with salsa on top whereas hers came with butter. We both got broccoli, but mine had parmesan and hers did not (Ya, they put it on the wrong plate. lol). And I got nothing else on my plate. But she also received a loaded baked potato AND a slice of garlic bread.
 Now I know I was better off without either one of those, but you would think they would at least substitute those items on your plate. Maybe offer cauliflower and carrots alongside the broccoli or what about a salad?? I mean, seriously! You are more likely to load up on the appetizer (which I did) or a dessert afterwards without as much food. Ya, so if I ever eat there again I will order it the regular way and just request that they leave the butter off the steak, so that I can at least take home the sides for Josh to eat and get my money's worth. Because my mom didn't even eat the sides at the restaurant. She took them home and ate them later on.
I didn't get home til late, so I never got the chance to exercise. Dangit. And then I found this out...

Fire-Grilled Corn Guacamole with Chips
Calories: 1400
Fat: 84
Sat Fat: 15
Carbs: 151
Protein: 17
Fiber: 25
Sodium: 2250
Yikes! Huh??!! I was traumatized because although they did help eat some of the chips and dip I ended up eating about 2/3 of it. Ugh.

Lighter Side Classic Sirloin vs. Classic Sirloin
Calories:  250 -  870
Fat:              7 - 51
Sat Fat:     2.5 - 18
Carbs:        10 - 53
Protein:      38 - 54
Fiber:           4 - 7
Sodium: 1580 - 2760

So, ya I did save quite a few calories and grams of fat, but not money...  Oh well, at least I have my health.

July17th,2012 Day Off

Tuesday, July 17th, 2012
I took the day off because it was Josh's day off. It's just too hard ...and embarrassing to workout when he is home. He said he was going up to the mountains, but never did. I probably would have tried to workout with him home, but he doesn't help with the baby, so it just makes it impossible. I have to try and get her to take a nap usually so that I can exercise, but between him and visitors it just makes it too difficult.
So, instead I entertained Hallie and cleaned the house all day. I was able to keep pretty busy all day long though which was good. I can at least say I wasn't a lazy bum adding on the calories and pounds. I was able to lightly clean the bathroom, do the dishes, and do the laundry in between feedings and fits and so I can say I feel pretty accomplished. I just wish he would at least hold and/or entertain Hallie while he watches tv. It would help out so much.  But what can I say, we females are the more accomplished gender... we can multitask. lol. Love them both. :]

July 15-16th,2012 Day Two and Three

Sunday, July15th, 2012
I took the day off because it was the Sabbath, and also because I am extremely sore! Didn't eat very well, but I was able to convince Josh to walk with me to my Parent's house. That's like a quarter of a mile. And then we walked back. It's not much, but at least it was something.  :]

Monday, July16th, 2012
Jillian Michaels- Banish Fat, Boost Metabolism
Had a hard time getting started again today. Partly because I'm still really sore from Saturday's workout. I haven't eaten the greatest either. But that's alright. I wasn't sure if I was going to be able to workout because Hallie had already been sleeping for a bit before I decided to get started. But I took my chances once again. She woke up during the cool-down. So, all went well. I was able to finish and feel good about myself. YaY!
But it was a difficult routine. I've always had a hard time with this video. It always kicks my butt. Especially in the second to last circuit. But I think I've figured out why...

Timer: 53:41
In Zone: 53:41
Avg BPM: 181
Peak BPM: 210
Calories: 1041

Yeah, holy cow right??!! I couldn't believe the numbers when I saw them either. On the cover it claims that you can lose up to 5lbs in one week. Which I thought was completely bogus, but if you were eating correctly and did this video every day with those numbers I think you actually could! Wow, who would've known that they weren't lying in the advertisement. I usually buy things hoping they'll work, but knowing deep down not to get my hopes up. Now I know I can trust some things. I just need to learn to have more faith in myself.
The second to last circuit is where my HR peaks. I think that's why I blackout during it sometimes. I need to find a way to control my HR short of taking a break. But ya, I was super excited with my results! I have been feeling fabulous ever since! My tummy has been tighter and I think my tush is a little perkier.  :]  lol. Even my mom complimented me on my shape before I disclosed my secret... I worked OUT! haha I guess it really does pay off! Can't keep the smile off of my face right now. I am going to have to do more of this! But I'm not all that excited to attempt this video again for just a bit. lol.

until next time- xoxoxo