Bum Bum Bum Bum BUMmm...

yep it's there, and it's bigger. lol. i have failed. stupid sweet tooth. ok ok i'm not doing good at all. this late night eating frenzy is ruining me.
the season is changing. the leaves are falling. so why aren't my numbers? it's because i've been eating terribly. yuck. not good at all.
i just found out that we might be getting our engagement pics done like pronto and i'm in no shape for them. they just butched my hair and i have gained tons of weight from so much stress. oh not to mention, my hair is falling out by the handfuls. aagghh! i've gotta lose weight for these pics! tomorrow is the start of diet hell. sorry to be so graphic, but i've gotta get mean. this whole "be nice to yourself" stuff doesn't work for me. i'm too good at cheating and forgiving. i'm going on a strict diet of All Natural and Protein Shakes. If it's not one or the other then it's not going in my mouth.
I've already screwed up this morning by eating delicious sugar cookies that me and josh baked, but starting now I'm gonna get it together and Get Fit!

Here We Go...!!!

Week 3

ugh. I am just not doing well with this at all. I just keep failing. I am back up to my original weight and there is no way I can reach my first checkpoint within a couple of days. Here's my stats:

WEIGHT: 135
BODY FAT: 29.2 %
WATER: 51.8 %
MUSCLE: 50.4 lbs
BMI: 23.0

This really sucks. I would be doing great and losing a lot of weight if I could just follow one simple rule.. No Late Night Eating. I just can't seem to stop this bad habit. On Monday I decided to take the tv out of my room. Because whenever I'm up late I turn the stupid thing on and eat in front of it, and then I fall asleep with it on. And while I'm snoozing my subconscious is picking up anything that is said by the commercials, shows, and infomercials. NOt good. I was hoping that if the tv was gone then I wouldn't stay up late to eat. But the first night I used my computer to watch The Office. Luckily, after the episode you're watching is over you don't have to soak up garbage for the rest of the night. Bad thing is I still stayed up eating late. And last night I just went into the family room and stayed up late eating and watching tv and then I came into my room and crashed. Blah.
I think it's because I have a void that I'm trying to fill. Whenever I'm with Josh I don't feel the need to scarf down every morsel in the house, and I fall asleep without even trying. But when he leaves all of a sudden I'm starving and I'm wide awake. It is so weird. But I think that I miss Josh and that is why stuff my face and zombify my brain. I need to work on this...
But the good news is I've done the elliptical and burned 500 cals every day this week so far. And on Sunday and Tuesday I did my nightly list (but I did it in the morning). And boy have I been sore lately. That is a really good list! But it takes me forever to do. (Jumping Jacks, Push-ups, Squat Jumps, Roll-outs, Inchworms, V-snaps, Side-dips, Thrusts, Holding Twists, Tricep Kickbacks, Bicep Curls, Weighted Arm Circles, and Plank Push-ups). But my stomach is starting to really tone up, tighten up, and flatten out. It's still a big bulge, but it looks tons better!
I'm going promise you and myself right now that tonight I'm not going to stay up late and eat. I am going to change. And I need to start doing my list at night. And I really want to try working out in the morning...

Week 2

I think the title should actually read "Weak Too." lol. Ok, so if you haven't guessed already.. I didn't do good at all last week. Life has just been so stressful. I've been eating so much stinkin food late at night it's completely ridiculous and gross. Late nights are my absolute weakness, especially when I have to stay up for homework or something. I know I shouldn't try to excuse my actions, but I really didn't stand a chance when I am stressed. And these past two weeks have by far been the roughest for me in 2009.
When will I learn that eating my emotions only makes me gain more emotional distress? When will I learn to break the cycle? When will I learn that I can eat it tomorrow, but sleep is more important? When will I learn that I am not hungry, but rather, my heart is needy?
I say TodaY. Today I am going to change my ways. Starting today I am going to change my ways. I am going to make a commitment to myself and to you. How am I going to do this? It's simple. I'm going to set rules, and give myself a schedule.

1. NO eating after 7:00 pm.
2. Brush your teeth as soon as you can after 7.
3. Get ready for bed before you change into your pj's.
4. Read your scriptures before you turn on the tv or music.
5. Say your prayers before you even touch your bed.
6. Do your nightly exercise routine before climbing into bed.

I have created a list of exercises I am going to do every night before I go to bed. They aren't much, but I used to do them when I was skinny. Doing a tiny amount every night can keep you really toned! So, I am going to do:
100-Jumping Jacks. 25-Pushups. 25-Vsnaps. 25-TricepKickbacks. 25-Arms.

Ok, so hopefully starting today I'll do tons better! But last week really really sucked. Ughh...
September 28, 2010
WEIGHT..........133.8
BODY FAT.......28.8 %
WATER.............52.1 %
MUSCLE...........50.4 lbs
BMI...................22.8