Week 3

ugh. I am just not doing well with this at all. I just keep failing. I am back up to my original weight and there is no way I can reach my first checkpoint within a couple of days. Here's my stats:

WEIGHT: 135
BODY FAT: 29.2 %
WATER: 51.8 %
MUSCLE: 50.4 lbs
BMI: 23.0

This really sucks. I would be doing great and losing a lot of weight if I could just follow one simple rule.. No Late Night Eating. I just can't seem to stop this bad habit. On Monday I decided to take the tv out of my room. Because whenever I'm up late I turn the stupid thing on and eat in front of it, and then I fall asleep with it on. And while I'm snoozing my subconscious is picking up anything that is said by the commercials, shows, and infomercials. NOt good. I was hoping that if the tv was gone then I wouldn't stay up late to eat. But the first night I used my computer to watch The Office. Luckily, after the episode you're watching is over you don't have to soak up garbage for the rest of the night. Bad thing is I still stayed up eating late. And last night I just went into the family room and stayed up late eating and watching tv and then I came into my room and crashed. Blah.
I think it's because I have a void that I'm trying to fill. Whenever I'm with Josh I don't feel the need to scarf down every morsel in the house, and I fall asleep without even trying. But when he leaves all of a sudden I'm starving and I'm wide awake. It is so weird. But I think that I miss Josh and that is why stuff my face and zombify my brain. I need to work on this...
But the good news is I've done the elliptical and burned 500 cals every day this week so far. And on Sunday and Tuesday I did my nightly list (but I did it in the morning). And boy have I been sore lately. That is a really good list! But it takes me forever to do. (Jumping Jacks, Push-ups, Squat Jumps, Roll-outs, Inchworms, V-snaps, Side-dips, Thrusts, Holding Twists, Tricep Kickbacks, Bicep Curls, Weighted Arm Circles, and Plank Push-ups). But my stomach is starting to really tone up, tighten up, and flatten out. It's still a big bulge, but it looks tons better!
I'm going promise you and myself right now that tonight I'm not going to stay up late and eat. I am going to change. And I need to start doing my list at night. And I really want to try working out in the morning...