Day 3.. err.. Day 2

Okie dok, so today is actually my third day of the diet, but where I took my free day already I am just gonna say it is my second because it is only my second day dieting. I was gonna get on here and update you yesterday, but I ran out of time. Sorry. But I am here now and that's all that matters. lol.
Yesterday was the big weigh in day. So here goes nothing:
Weight: 134.4 lbs
Body Fat: 27.7%
Muscle: 51.4 lbs
Water: 53.0%
BMI: 22.9
At least I'm below 135 again. That's good news. Not what I want to be at, but good news nonetheless. My body fat percentage is GROSS! That is so sickening! That is the one number I want to change more than any of the others. Hopefully, the muscle poundage is good because I really don't know what it's supposed to be at. And my water is perfect! Your water should be in the range of 50-55%. And my BMI is at a "healthy" level, but it's still too close to the border. It needs to go down. I also measured myself. Ugh...
Upper Arm: 10.5 in
Chest: 34 in
Waist: 32.5 in
Hips: 37 in
Thigh: 23 in
Calf: 14 in
I have more detailed measurements in my journal, but that is just to give you an idea. I take measurements for both my right and left sides because believe it or not they do differ. Sorry to make you feel self-conscious, but we are not perfectly symmetrical. Depending on which side is more dominant determines which muscle is bigger. Crazy huh?! And all the measurements posted are taken from the widest point. I never quite know where to measure for my waist and hips, so I just measured at my belly-button and underwear line. I actually have 3 different locations for my waist measurement and two for my hips in my personal journal. Just so I'm a little more accurate. lol.
The good news is I'm pear-shaped, so I'm healthy. YaY! But my waist is almost as big as my chest! NOO!!! That must change immediately! This is why I hate my body.. if you notice my waist, chest, and hips are almost all the same. Grr!! That's why I'm a box! I don't have that sexy curvacious body that guys like. My ribs are just too wide! I can't get those sides that slope in like all the models have. My sides always just go straight down. Even back when I was a twig and exercised like crazy they still refused to curve. Sorry, but I had to vent for a minute.
Ok, so yesterday I struggled. I wanted bad carbs so much! It was killing me. Nothing was satisfying me, and so I kept eating! I kind of expected this, so I wasn't too shocked.
Around 4pm I finally decided it was time to exercise and went downstairs to do a movie. And that's when they found me!! Those stupid stupid tortilla chips were sitting next to the couch! Ahhh! I almost caved in. I just wanted them so bad! But you should be proud of me! I said no, picked them up, closed them, put them in the windowsill, and then threw in my movie!! I didn't eat a single one! Hoorah! But the movie killed me. lol. I did the Biggest Loser's Bootcamp Workout for Weeks 3-4 with 8lb weights. Holy Cow! I was dying and I mean dying! Haha. But I survived, and I was so relieved when it was over!
But here's my greatest battle: late night cravings. They get me every time. Mine are absolutely terrible! That's when I do most of my eating. No matter how good I've done that day I usually blow it at night. Like I did last night. I ate so much! None of it was from the restricted list, but still! Grr Caraline! Don't Do It! This is going to be a future commitment, but right now it's just a struggle.

Today when I jumped on the scale I was 134.6. I expected this. I ate some pretty heavy foods last night around midnight. Tisk Tisk! But at least it wasn't a huge gain. But it's not what I want. I'm doing bettter with my cravings today. Maybe I really can pull this off!!?? Wish me luck! I'm off to battle (a.k.a. exercise). lol. See you on the scales!